Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Failure!

'Every failure is one step, towards success'. One of the most heard , and famous proverbs. It has a deeper meaning than what any reader can get in one go. It teaches us a beautiful thing about life. But, how I wish life could be taught so easily! Infact, life cannot be taught at all, it has to be learned and lived.

I'm not a very strong person, I break easily. And, I trust even more easily. Tears, are like my best friends. I cry at everything. But, for once, too many failures in one go, were a little hard catch, personally. First, I flunked in my first semester examination and that too by 1 mark. This was humiliating and at the same time kind of heartbreaking. I didn't know, how to take it. I know my parents didn't scold and were all cool with it, because I wrote the paper in high fever and an unpleasant unconsciousness. However, I did not expect myself to undergo it. All set and done, I overcame it with much shock and tears.

The next, was a larger failure, because exams once failed can be reappeared. However, people that are once judged wrong, will remain like that. I thought my friends are going to be with me in this, but what I found was that they had been lying and were absolutely prepared to pass with flying colors. They lied, when they told me they didn't study. They lied when they told me that they were unprepared . They lied when they did all the drama. It was sad, and disappointing. I wasn't upset with them. I was upset with myself for taking the wrong decision. I learnt that, I'm still a poor judge of people, and meeting new people did not make it any better. I was still innocent, in a world of overly-intelligent people. Sad enough.

And, now I know how to deal with life.  I will completely stop trusting everyone around me.

Signing off.
In a Lil discomfort.

Beware of people!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Love? Maybe!

How often do we think we're in love? We fall in love with things, moments, memories , people and almost everyone around us... But , there's always a click, that we get with some people.. there are some people who are capable of giving us butterflies in our stomach every time they text, every time they call, you just feel that you've fallen for them even more deeply, and the moment you see them it's like..
. God that feeling! That killer feeling! Its just not something that I can describe like ever! Its just out of the world,.. you start relating them to every song... you feel like seeing them almost always .. isn't it like so WOW! That one emotion is worth dying for...

As quoted by Johnny Depp once,"if you fall for two people , always go for the second, because of you really loved the first, you won't go for the second". But, I personally don't agree... I believe in destiny... I believe in love... and I believe in truly falling in love .. it's like the wow moment... I believe that you fall for the second, maybe because the first wasn't meant to be .. sometimes the first is a mistake, we weren't born with someone telling us that we have to love that one guy in particular. .. but that feeling of being in love, wanting them every second of the day and seeing them all the time in your dreams .. it's like so good. . Its like amazing... it's like I cannot express.  . The jealousy you get when someone else talks to them.. it's like.. you simply wanna punch them in the face for going close to your guy .. it's like the best thing one can ever come across!

But, there's a fear attached too with this awesome-ness , what if they don't like you back... what if they don't feel the same about you, what if they feel the same about someone else... isn't that really heartbreaking , something you can't face for a whole lifetime... a feeling that you'd die ..

Why is love so complicated ... can't life just straighten up... why does it unfold in strands and not just in one go? Is it because the thrill is way too much for one to take..

But, all I know is, I love him... I just want him to be mine .. forever .. because there is no one else I want in life. .. it's just he'll make my life complete .. he has a magic or something on me... because he's just my someone special... and I hope that if he comes , he'll stay forever!

Me, signing off!(in love)