Faith!

Google describes faith as "complete trust or confidence in someone or something".
Faith! Faith! how many times in a day do we use the word "faith"?
Do we really mean it, every time we use it?

Faith!
Have you ever lost faith?
Do you even know how does it feel to have trusted somebody with all your heart and then being let down?
I know. Because, i have been through it.
I have been through the pain that one feels when somebody is not faithful.
It's excruciating. Its heartbreaking. Its hurting, it's painful.

But well, you know what's the worse thing about being hurt?

The fact that faith once broken cannot return.
No matter how much you try, no matter how much you cry.
faith that's gone , can never be back.
It's gone.
Once and for all.

So, please. Hold on to it.

I grew up....

We grow up and learn so much. We learn how trust is broken, we learn how love is not the way it's portrayed in fairy tales , we learn that people don't always tell the truth, and a lot more.

I think I grew up that day.. I think I learned about life..
That day.. when I got to know that he was cheating me, after being with me for 3 long years. After all te pain that i had gone through for him. After all those lies that i had said  for him. After all those tears I shed .. After all those sleepless nights.. I learned..

I learned that it didn't matter to him anymore.. he didn't care that I had a heart which was now broken into a million pieces.. He was heartless.. Like he had immunity to all those emotions.. like he could survive them all.. like he didn't care about even one second that we spent together..

And then I thought, why do these people affect or lives so much?
Isn't it our fault?
Isn't it us who gives them the power to control our lives?

And, then i realized. That I'm done with him and his bullshit. And, that I will move on and not let him affect me anymore. Because it's me who has the power to keep myself happy/sad and NOT him.

And i grew up.....

Failure!

'Every failure is one step, towards success'. One of the most heard , and famous proverbs. It has a deeper meaning than what any reader can get in one go. It teaches us a beautiful thing about life. But, how I wish life could be taught so easily! Infact, life cannot be taught at all, it has to be learned and lived.

I'm not a very strong person, I break easily. And, I trust even more easily. Tears, are like my best friends. I cry at everything. But, for once, too many failures in one go, were a little hard catch, personally. First, I flunked in my first semester examination and that too by 1 mark. This was humiliating and at the same time kind of heartbreaking. I didn't know, how to take it. I know my parents didn't scold and were all cool with it, because I wrote the paper in high fever and an unpleasant unconsciousness. However, I did not expect myself to undergo it. All set and done, I overcame it with much shock and tears.

The next, was a larger failure, because exams once failed can be reappeared. However, people that are once judged wrong, will remain like that. I thought my friends are going to be with me in this, but what I found was that they had been lying and were absolutely prepared to pass with flying colors. They lied, when they told me they didn't study. They lied when they told me that they were unprepared . They lied when they did all the drama. It was sad, and disappointing. I wasn't upset with them. I was upset with myself for taking the wrong decision. I learnt that, I'm still a poor judge of people, and meeting new people did not make it any better. I was still innocent, in a world of overly-intelligent people. Sad enough.

And, now I know how to deal with life.  I will completely stop trusting everyone around me.

Signing off.
In a Lil discomfort.

Beware of people!

Love? Maybe!

How often do we think we're in love? We fall in love with things, moments, memories , people and almost everyone around us... But , there's always a click, that we get with some people.. there are some people who are capable of giving us butterflies in our stomach every time they text, every time they call, you just feel that you've fallen for them even more deeply, and the moment you see them it's like..
. God that feeling! That killer feeling! Its just not something that I can describe like ever! Its just out of the world,.. you start relating them to every song... you feel like seeing them almost always .. isn't it like so WOW! That one emotion is worth dying for...

As quoted by Johnny Depp once,"if you fall for two people , always go for the second, because of you really loved the first, you won't go for the second". But, I personally don't agree... I believe in destiny... I believe in love... and I believe in truly falling in love .. it's like the wow moment... I believe that you fall for the second, maybe because the first wasn't meant to be .. sometimes the first is a mistake, we weren't born with someone telling us that we have to love that one guy in particular. .. but that feeling of being in love, wanting them every second of the day and seeing them all the time in your dreams .. it's like so good. . Its like amazing... it's like I cannot express.  . The jealousy you get when someone else talks to them.. it's like.. you simply wanna punch them in the face for going close to your guy .. it's like the best thing one can ever come across!

But, there's a fear attached too with this awesome-ness , what if they don't like you back... what if they don't feel the same about you, what if they feel the same about someone else... isn't that really heartbreaking , something you can't face for a whole lifetime... a feeling that you'd die ..

Why is love so complicated ... can't life just straighten up... why does it unfold in strands and not just in one go? Is it because the thrill is way too much for one to take..

But, all I know is, I love him... I just want him to be mine .. forever .. because there is no one else I want in life. .. it's just he'll make my life complete .. he has a magic or something on me... because he's just my someone special... and I hope that if he comes , he'll stay forever!

Me, signing off!(in love)

Lies!

How often do we as individuals lie and get away with it? What do we lie about? Are most things that we lie about worth the lies? Or is it just because we don't find anything better to say or make an excuse or give a justification?

Most of the times we lie, because we are too afraid to tell the truth and deal with the complications it gets for us. The surprising thing is that , it's not the truth that brings the complications but the lie that drags us into all the shit we face later. Almost all the time we are simply scared of things that might happen, and what we do is forget that 'might' is not a deciding word, it has possibilities of both that a situation may occur or may not occur. And most of the times in these lies we loose our original self and tend to forget what was the truth. 

The truth is much much more easier to handle as compared to the lie. To hide one lie, you've to tell a million more lies. Is that really acceptable?  I mean, most of the times, I'm stuck in situations where I simply lie to get away, and hell! yes! I do get away, but that is for a very short while of course! Most of the lies that I tell always get caught. And, it's not that I'm bad at telling lies or something, it's just that they have to be caught. If not now, then maybe in a while. But, you can never get away with telling a lie.

the biggest cost of telling a lie is loosing the person you've loved the most. I paid it. Trust me, it's the worst feeling on the planet. You feel so frustrated, broken & what not. And, you can do absolutely nothing to get rid of this feeling. You go like; 'Man! I wish I didn't do this'. But, by the time you realize that what you've done was wrong, it's too late too apologize. 

All you can do is live with the guilt. And living with guilt is like living with a burden. And, it's not at all, simple for a start.

Here's me signing off, with a free advice;

AVOID LIES AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! :\

Tears!

How do you feel when you see somebody cry? You feel sad? Or happy (for the sadist people)?

Okay, let me change the question, how do you feel when you see someone you love cry in front of you?
Isn't it annoying and at the same time heart-breaking? Isn't it something like a knife is being sliced through your chest and you can do nothing about it! Isn't it something like you are about to approach the end of all possibilities of life?

They say tears are the last gift of love.. Tears can make any person cry ... And seeing the person you love sob their eyes out in front of you, because of you is the worst thing one can ever experience. Trust me it hurts. . Real real bad. You cannot stop your own tears.

I feel miserable. Seeing your loved one cry their eyes out.. I mean I thought I was strong enough to handle it, . But, I am not. I'm a jerk. I actually hurt him with something that barely mattered. I made him leave me. I found temporary happiness but permanent loneliness. I may cry as much but, I know that the value of my tears is nothing in front of his..

And, it's true;
If a boy cries for you, he really loves you. </3

At peace!

Sometimes life brings you to such crossroads, that you don't know which way to take! which way to follow, whom to trust and whom to just let go! Sometimes you feel you love people way too much that existence without them is impossible! But, the truth is that you don't know how strong you are until being strong is the ONLY choice you've got!


Isn't it strange how somebody becomes your life so easily and leaves you all alone mid way even more  easily. Sometimes we feel that we affect people too much, but the truth is that our presence is not even felt in their lives. It's like, they don't even feel that you've left their lives.


The most ironical thing about life is that you normally care about people too much when they don't give you any importance in their life. It is so weird, that how somebody can just ignore you, despite of knowing how crazily you feel about them .


Life in itself is one thing you can never be happy out. You can never get tired of craving for things that merely exist.. All you want is one.. just one thing that you can't get. Or maybe you don't wish for it enough.

I broke up with somebody I've been with for the past 2 years . Weird.. that we had to let each other go like that but, trust me there is no person on the planet who's at peace the way I am right now. Because, there is nothing bigger than self esteem in life. If somebody cannot respect you the way you are, they have no right to be with you.
It is as simple as buying a package. You take it, if you like it great, and if you don't then it's you who has to deal with it! There is gonna be absolutely no change in it!

And, one thing I've learned;
If you don't have the balls to protect yourself from such people , then people are gonna screw you in any fucking way.
It's ONLY YOU who will stand up for yourself in the end.

So everyone, STAY AT PEACE!
And if any corner of your life is dark, better empty it , so that something beautiful can take it's place.

And ENJOY EVERY SECOND YOU LIVE! :)